Sunday, July 15, 2007

Starting up on life

Today was Eesh's first day at school. Anxious and cranky, i had lost sleep at 4 AM thinking about this. Finally, my wife and i took her to this preschool, got the registration and stuff done, and left her to play for about half hour. I saw her do two rounds of "Ring around the rosie" with the kids around. Felt all goey a bit and now, i cant but think of this Bob Dylan song - could have been written by me for Eesh if i was a poet!

This is to Eesh :

May God bless and keep you always,
May your wishes all come true,
May you always do for others And let others do for you.
May you build a ladder to the stars And climb on every rung,
May you stay forever young.

May you grow up to be righteous,May you grow up to be true,
May you always know the truth And see the lights surrounding you.
May you always be courageous,Stand upright and be strong,
May you stay forever young.

May your hands always be busy,May your feet always be swift,
May you have a strong foundation When the winds of changes shift.
May your heart always be joyful,May your song always be sung,
May you stay forever young.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

The flight

Been a while since i touched my camera! Thought id give it a small break..... will be back.

Meanwhile, a few pics that i took on a flight i forgot to upload.

Saturday, July 7, 2007

7 Days and Done with it!

7 Days gone and i think im done with smoking for good.

No, it was not about will power or dependence on nicotine or anything like that. It was merely a decision to quit. For most smokers, there is really no good reason to decide to quit. To a smoker, the threat of cancer, etc is really not there - "its a chance that it might happen, and when youre smoking, the chance is just higher. Also, the chance of you dying is anyway much higher when you are driven back home from work, so do you stop driving?" So, there is really no compulsive reason and therefore, though the smoker gives up for a little while, he really sees no point in continuing - vague long term benefits as against a very pleasurable experience here and now. Thats why quitting attempts fail.

So, you think about why you should quit. Mine was rock solid - i dint want to create that "chance" that i might die - cause my wife and kid really needed me.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Day 4 and very stressful

Its been four days.. and possibily the first time iam feeling a bit of an urge. But fighting it. Guess more than the smoke, it the idea of getting a break from the routine that kills. But a few minutes of killing time is for sure not worth the payoffs!! check the pic.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

63 hours and feeling great!

Been hanging in there really strong. And feel great about it....ive had none of the smoking pangs so far. Apparantly, my nerve endings will start regrowing now and my ability to smell and taste improves.

Monday, July 2, 2007

39 Hours and Going Strong!

Been a while since i dropped in here. In fact i had so much to write about Sudan as well, but did nothing of it.

And yes, its been 39 hours since ive had a cigarette! And this time, its going to be quits for good. Iam using a bit of help from Novaratis - their 2 mg nicotine chewing gums. When the desire really bites in, the gum really helps.

1) They says that by now my heart rate and blood pressure levels drop and the carbon monoxide levels in my body gets back to normal. Good! Looking forward.
2) Yesterday i did 4 km on in 29 minutes on the tread. I guess in a week, i should be able to make 5 km in that time!
3) My lips and skin feel softer.
4) I feel much calmer and less stressed that normal, low anxiety and am able to focus better.
5) Thought i got a little constipated. Dont know if its because of the kinda food ive been eating or my quitting.
6) And my wife is going to love me for this!

My folks are coming back after a 40 day vacation in Chennai.... am i excited!